Being a teenager in this life is harder than it looks.
Really, this generation can just be so cruel at times. Cruel people. Sometimes I think it’s a good thing because it helps us learn and grow. But still, we’re all a mess. Each and every one of us, including me.
All I want is to have the energy of a little kid again.
I want to get super excited for small “holidays” like Halloween. I wanna go out in public, not caring about how I look. I wanna get excited for gym class, and actually participate..even if it means sweating. I wanna like school again. I wanna be able to run around and actually speak my mind to random people. Sigh, I’d do anything to have that lifestyle back. I mean, everyday, I listen to my 6 year old brother complain about how much “homework” he has. Each time he complains, I say back back to him, “don’t take it for granted, Ethan. All you have to do is connect the dots. When you get up to highschool, you’ll know what I mean.”
When it comes to my “business” on intimacy with my boyfriend, in the end, what does it matter what I do? I’ve become so open about it because I’ve realized that it doesn’t matter. If you really think about it, what’s so bad about being intimate with your man? If two people love each other, obviously one of the many ways to express their love is being “sexual”. It’s not a bad thing whatsoever. That’s why nowadays, I just don’t give a fck anymore if I’m judged because I’m not doing anything wrong. It’s anybody’s preference on how they choose to be intimate, and what they do, and that’s not a bad thing either. Some couples are extreme, some aren’t. It doesn’t matter.
No one has the right to have a problem or call anybody out just because they “do things” with their significant other. It’s not like we’re doing it with so many different guys, now THAT’S a slut/whore. THAT’S when you can have a problem. But when a girl is just doing it with her boyfriend, that’s THEIR business, it’s the two of them, they can do what they want. And if it makes you uncomfortable at the thought and that’s why you have the nerve to judge someone, then either you need to grow up, or maybe it has to happen to you to understand how and why it goes down.
So now, I don’t give a crap if anybody wants to be all “ewww” about it, I’m gonna be real about it, cause in my opinion there’s nothing wrong with it. Whether you choose to lose it or you’re waiting, doesn’t matter — it’s your preference.
Now, I don’t even think I wanna go out today. It’s weird though, because I haven’t trick or treated in two or three years? I usually go on a cruise on Halloween with @ksobredilla. Sigh, I can’t decide whether to bum all day or go out & get candy..I’m a loser.
OMG, i love youuu. I totally forgot about my laughD: I think I’ve been depressed cause I haven’t laughed like that since last year :’( HOLY EFF. I didn’t even realize. Shit. That’s my true laugh & if I haven’t laughed like that in a year, I guess nothing is funnny these days -__- FUCK.
I'm not the kinda girl who looks great in every outfit. Neither am I the type of girl who gets countless likes on Facebook whenever I post up a status or picture. I'm not that pretty and am really sarcastic at times. If you don't like it, I won't force you to accept me.
24077.) I'm only fifteen, I'm inlove with a boy I've been together with for a year. We broke up due to our stupid fights. Nothing tops his smile, his hair or the look in his eyes. I wish I could have it all back, but I can't because I screwed everything up.
Relationships are one of the most difficult things to understand; you’re either happy or sad with each other or jealous of someone else. There are also times when you feel like you have to BE that perfect person for someone, or in other words, compliment your significant other. Not only does true happiness lie within the person you love, but it lies solely within yourself.
Getting caught up in something that will never happen. You like this one person, but they will never acknowledge you. You try and show them that they mean a lot to you without actually telling them, so you don’t ruin your friendship. You just stand there as “another guy/girl” in their lives. The worst part about it is that its not easy to stop. You just can’t control your feelings for this person, and it overwhelms you. They just consider you as a friend and you feel as if you should
So let’s play a game. Let’s sweet talk. Let’s play fight. Let’s talk 24/7. Let’s tell each other good morning and good night every day. Let’s take walks together. Let’s give each other nicknames. Let’s hang out with each others’ friends. Let’s go on dates. Let’s talk on the phone all night long. Let’s hold each other. Let’s kiss and hug. And whoever falls in love first? Loses.
I really thought I posted this a week ago, but I guess not..Day 16-Day 21.
Day 16 - Your views on mainstream music. Mainstream music is like popular music or like music well known to the public or something, right? Well, if it is, then I don’t really have a “view” on it. I mean, I guess it eventually gets to the point where it’s overplayed and becomes annoying. I like underground artists, lol. I prefer originality over popularity or following what everyone else listens to. PS-I hope that really is what mainstream music is..otherwise, I probably sound so dumb right now. Day 17 - Your highs and lows of this past year. Highs- the pageant & I became closer to people I never thought I’d be close to; Lows- DRAMA & school has been so stressful Day 18 - Your beliefs. Beliefs on what? Like religion? I need a specific topic to talk about, lol. Day
You don’t like me, but the feeling is mutual! So I guess we’re even, huh? Well, then, I’m just gonna forget you exist ‘cause you’re not worth my time..and I promise you, I’m not worth yours. It’s that simple..so then what’s with all this stupid drama?
23098.) every girl i see is so beautiful in my eyes. my friends, my sister, all the girls at my school.. even people i don't even know. but me? i can't even compare. i hate every little thing about my body and my looks. i've never felt pretty or even the least bit attractive. i don't think i'll ever have confidence in myself, no matter what anyone tells me.