Day 25 : Something you would do if no one stopped you or if you knew you wouldn’t fail. Get my dogggy ;) dopey the dope dopester! <333 Day 26 : Your definition of love. Love is being happy and safe and trusting people, but deeper than just a smile. It’s undescribable. From family to friends to boyfriends to activities.. <3 Day 27 : Your definition of the meaning of life. Life is simply conquering your dreams. Well, to me it is anyways. Or if I could have people admire me & accomplish my dreams at the same time & fall in love, then my life would be a m a z i n g. “Life is like a rollercoaster; it has so many ups & downs” -hayward -__- Day 28 : A moment you remember being completely happy in and a description of why you believe you were. What is your definition of happiness? Happiness is just smiling & laughing and when nothing can mess it up. Like no matter how mean people are or how bad your day is, you just keep a smile on & nothing gets you down. If only I was like that. Day 29 : What you live for. Family & Friends. Just knowing that I help them & letting them know I love them makes me happy. Day 30 : Ways you believe you have grown over the past thirty days. Well, I learned that no matter how much my boyfriend and I fight, we always get through it <33 I think I’ve grown by becoming stronger? if that counts.. happy 7th lasagna day ;D
3372.) I’m actually loosing all of my friends, and I’m not the only one noticing that I’m not trying to stop it from happening. Why should I try for friends who don’t even want to be around me in the first place?
Why do I torture myself like this? I dont know what I get out of it. Maybe I think it'll make me feel "better" than someone for once, but it only makes me feel worse. Yet, I do it constantly -___- Damn, What am I doing with my life?
Day 24 : Something you did as a child that other people remember you for.
OH GOSH. Well, everyone knew/knows me as that psycho child. I had tantrums EVERYDAY, and I would cry ALOT. I remember telling my parents that I hated them constantly & I would lock myself in my room and throw all stuff at the walls -__- This is embarassing. I was the kid that you NEVER want to make angry. I think people thought I was a devil child..One time, my step sister took my toy without asking permission and I hit her like crazy and I would slap my step mom. How disrespectful…My step sister needed to share a room with me for a while & after she “borrowed” my toy, I took all her stuff and threw it down the stairs. Since then, she had to move out of my room into the office downstairs. I was VERY SELFISH & JEALOUS OF EVERYONE ELSE, and I always wanted what they had…don’t judge me. I’ve changed..a bit. Well, I have an excuse! It was right after my parents’ divorce and so much was going on that I didn’t understand..
Day 12 : Your favorite musical artist’s life story; Not fair! I don’t have a favorite musical artist! D: Day 13 : A memory that never fails to make you laugh; Doing pranks on my step sister, M. So one time, a couple years ago, M was like 9ish and she fell asleep. We(my cousins & i) found this gross expired salad dressing & we decided to pour it all over her. Yeah, I know, we’re mean…but this was like right when we first met M and we thought she was so weird and abnormal. The salad dressing smelt like shit & M like threw up and the room smelt so bad. LMFAO, good times.. Day 14 : Best mashup you’ve ever heard; too many :P Day 15 : A moment, phrase, or song that has changed your life the most; Everything happens for a reason. Day 16 : Something that you want to do within the next five years; graduate & get freakin amazing grades. I’m a nerd with no social life :) Day 17 : What you want to remembered for; I just want to make an impact on someone’s life..thats pretty much it. Day 18 : A picture that makes you feel;…uhhhm hungry :D I would put a picture of 483205823049lbs of chocolate, but I’m lazy Day 19 : A passage from a book that has touched you; Does The Bible count? “Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves.” — 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 Day 20 : A band that you immediately liked and the song that made you like them; NeverShoutNever<333 -Trouble? idunno it was last summer Day 21 : Your favorite medium of art; I don’t even know what that means -___- Day 22 : Someone you would give your life up for without question; My mommy<3 Day 23 : Most awkward first impression you feel you’ve ever given; Usually I’m the one giving the awkward first impression..so you tell me
I know there’s more to life than having that beautiful figure, but I think life would be much easier if I was beautiful. Maybe I am beautiful. I just don’t feel beautiful. I think if a person feels beautiful, whether they are or not, it shows through, and that’s a type of beauty that is hard to find. If you feel beautiful, I applaud you. You’re a better person than I’ll ever be. (via blogsecret)
Roses are red, filipinos are brown. You mess with us and your going down. My sick pride, I will not hide. My Filipino race, I will not disgrace. My Filipino blood, flows hot & true. My Filipino peeps, I will stand by you. I will be a proud Filipino till the day I die. Our sick flag, always stands high. Filipino pride in my mind, Filipino blood is my kind. So step aside and let me through, cause its all about the Filipino crew.
It’s sad to say, but all I can do is complain about life. I’m just so unhappy and I honestly do not know why…like things are just so complicated. I made my tumblr as a place to just right about good days, so people can see how happy I usually am even though I dont look it, ha. Now look at my tumblr…it’s just a place for me to rant & I’m sorry if you dont like my posts like this, I just need to let it out somewhere..even if it is to strangers on a blogging site :/ The thing is…I’m tired of putting on a freakin act for people. You know what? You think I’m just some girl that’s quiet and shit & that doesn’t do anything with her life? Well youre wrong. Infact, youre extremely wrong. If only you got to know me first, then you might realize or atleast somewhat understand what I’m going through. I can pretty much say that freshman year was nothing that I expected. I’ve said this so many times too, but its true. I imagined it to be fun and easy like everyone says. Instead, I’m failing like two classes & literally failing! Everything else are B’s. Fuck school. I try so hard & fail. I give up. I’ve lost faith in myself. I can’t push myself anymore. My life used to be so easy & I didn’t have to worry about anything. Sucks to think that some kids’ biggest problems are finding outfits for school. WOW. Freakin shut the eff up! You’re life is amazing, rich bitch. Honestly, I hate complaining too. I know that other kids have it 100x worse, but still…UGH. My gosh. I don’t know what to do. I’m not independent at all to do this on my own & I feel like my parents don’t support me. Whatever, I just needed to vent…as usual. I just wish I could just change stuff…my life, my personality, everything. I feel terrible. I’m a terrible friend, sister, daughter, girlfriend, terrible everything. Sorry. I wana go back in time.
She yells because she cares; she cries because she’s frustrated. She randomly smiles because she’s thinking of you, even if you’re already there. She scrunches her face because she’s about to explode, not because she’s constipated. She hits you because she wants to touch you. She stares at you because she’s infatuated. She calls every half hour because she misses you. She lectures you because she’s boss, not mom. She kisses you because she just wants to. She asks you questions because she’s curious, not to be annoying. She wants to know where you are to be with you. She calls just to hear your voice. She walks beside you to hold your hand. She sits close to you to lean on your shoulder. She stands in front of you because she wants a hug. Just face it boy; she’s in love with you.
“Relationships aren’t easy, so much comes with them. No one actually realizes how much trouble a relationship is until they’re in one. Yes, it may seem great at first, but are you still gonna feel that way when you realize you can’t trust them or are fighting with them? Are you gonna feel that way in good times and the bad? Most likely, you aren’t going to. But that’s what makes a relationship so amazing. No matter how much you can hate that person, if it’s true love it will always work out.”—(via poeticheartache) (via serendipityandthetruth)
Ahh, I don’t like choosing favorites. This isn’t a favorite, just an example? I guess. I love pictures like this. Baby pictures…I love looking at them. Yes, I was an ugly child. I have been told too many times…don’t remind me, but they bring back so many memories, good and bad. I wish I was still little. No problems with family. No parents fighting. No problems with friends. No problems with boys. No problems with school…just living my life & relaxing. I don’t think little kids realize how amazing their lives are, especially my little brothers & little sister. They cry over the littlest of things and here I am, watching them, thinking to myself how much I wanna be them..how much I wanna switch places, just for a day…
I wish you weren’t so damn oblivious. Oblivious to everything, that is. When was the last time you even noticed me? I feel like you’re stuck in your own little bubble, thinking about no one but yourself. I just need you to be here for me sometimes…not even everytime I’m sad because that might be too much work for you. I just want you to show me that you care. I don’t wanna be wasting my time on you. I have a lot more to worry about & don’t call me overdramatic, because you have no fucking idea. You think I live this perfect life, but I don’t. I can try to write down all my problems, but I’d run out of paper. You’re better than me..you happy now? I bet you already knew that due to the 432049 times that i’ve told you, but now I’ve told you 432050 times. It’s official. I would kill to have your life.
“This is the beginning of a new day. You have been given this day to use as you will. You can waste it or use it for good. What you do today is important because you are exchanging a day of your life for it. When tomorrow comes, this day will be gone forever; in its place is something that you have left behind…let it be something good.”—
I just don’t understand myself. In fact, I don’t understand anything that happens. I am so extremely disappointed and frustrated with myself. I can’t take it anymore. I try my best in everything that I do, but I fail. I’m beginning to think that there isn’t even a point in trying..no matter how hard I try to succeed, I end up failing. Whether its in school, with my friends, or my family…things don’t ever work out. Please help me to convince myself that everything is worth it. Love, me.
Day 05 : A thank you letter to someone who has changed your life; Dear Justin, I know we have our fights and our problems sometimes, but I’m really happy that I met you this year. I never imagined my freshman year to be anything like this. I imagined endless stress and a life without happiness. Yes, it was very stressful, but without you, I cannot imagine how much worse it could have been. We’ve gone from being complete strangers to pretty much best friends in about 7months(: I’m amazed. And when people see this, theyre gonna go spam my formspring saying “Youre obsessed with your boyfriend” but you know what? Fuck what they say. To me, everything that has happened/that will happen with us happened for a reason…and whatever happens, good or bad, I still love you. I promise. I can go on and on, but you’re gonna get hella bored, so yeah..I know I make your life super miserable at times & I’m really sorry for everything. Thanks for being there for me or atleast trying to keep up with this chaotic mess of a person I am :) Love, Bear
Day 06 : Earliest thing you can remember; BLD jc4 retreat <3 oh gosh, the memories(: <3 ;) I remember everything. May 07 - May 09. I remember the drama, the stress, the fun..all of it. Even if I only got 3hours of sleep the whole weekend -____- A W K W A R D .
Day 07 : Favorite cover of your favorite song; Again, i don’t have a favorite song, but i really like ‘My everything’ by Randolph & Cathy…and ‘Unstoppable’ by Ryan Bandong. Heck, I love all Ryan Bandong songs & I my favorite covers of those songs are the originals which are on youtube anyways.
Day 08 : Someone you think would make a good president; Nick Jonas :D LOL, im weird.
Day 09 : Five things you want to see change; 1. Myself 2. My parents 3. You 4. This terrible, yet, beautiful world we live in 5. My grades…actually, EVERYTHING, not change for the worse, but change for the better
Day 10 : A dream you had this past week described in detail; I dreamt about having a horse in my backyard. My backyard is a pretty descent size, so we had one horse in my dream. Then, we opened the gate and she/he like left and came back with like three more horses..it was pretty sweet. Then, there was this like boy from our school there ? And he like took care of the horses..Odd thing is that TODAY, May 10, my step dad found a dog walking around my driveway & we took her in..it kinda reminded me of this dream I had. But she’s gone now :/ back to her owner..
We’re teenagers. We’re still learning. Shit happens. We cheat, we lie, we criticize, we fight over stupid things. We fall in love and end up getting hurt. We bitch, bitch, bitch. We bitch about bitches being bitches. We party till dawn, we drink till we pass out. We hate people for no reason, we call each other names. We stay up late having deep conversations, or stay up late just to think. We go out and have a kick ass time with our friends and those will be the memories. One day that’s going to all pass. You can waste your time focusing on all the bad things, but one day you’re gonna wish you were still a teenager. So make the most of what you have now, forget all the bullshit and drama and live your fucking life with a sexy smile on your face.
Well, more like someone. So you see that lady in the picture? Well, that’s my mama! She inspires me soo much. You might think its a little odd, but we’re pretty much best friends. We tell each other EVERYTHING..I even tell her my boy problems -___- A lot of people think we look & act alike..they think we’re sisters and I’m like “uhhhm..she’s 22 years older than me..” Weird? I know. I don’t think we look alike at all, but we do have the same style. We act really alike, actually. We share clothes, love partying, like the same music, work out together, and take pictures of ourselves…yuuup, like mother like daughter. Or whatever that saying is..? We might get into fights & arguments, but I love my mom. I don’t know what I would do without her.
Day 01- Guilty pleasure Day 02- Something that inspires you Day 03- The five songs you would have with you on a desert island and why Day 04- What you imagine paradise to be like Day 05- A thank you letter to someone who has changed your life
Day 06- Earliest thing you can remember Day 07- Favorite cover of your favorite song Day 08- Someone you think would make a good president Day 09- Five things you want to see change Day 10- A dream you had this past week described in detail Day 11- Favorite picture ever taken of yourself Day 12- Your favorite musical artist’s life story Day 13- A memory that never fails to make you laugh Day 14- Best mashup you’ve ever heard Day 15- A moment, phrase, or song that has changed your life the most. Day 16- Something that you want to do within the next five years. Day 17- What you want to remembered for. Day 18- A picture that makes you feel Day 19- A passage from a book that has touched you Day 20- A band that you immediately liked and the song that made you like them Day 21- Your favorite medium of art. Day 22- Someone you would give your life up for without question. Day 23- Most awkward first impression you feel you’ve ever given Day 24- Something you did as a child that other people remember you for. Day 25- Something you would do if no one stopped you or if you knew you wouldn’t fail. Day 26- Your definition of love. Day 27- Your definition of the meaning of life. Day 28- A moment you remember being completely happy in and a description of why you believe you were. What is your definition of happiness? Day 29- What you live for. Day 30- Ways you believe you have grown over the past thirty days.