I want a relationship that has no on and offs or breaks. A relationship to where you found your love and you have no confusion of it, as if you already knew what you wanted. Where you know that the relationship between the two of you will go far without any complications - of course, you should have an understanding that not everything will be perfect, that there will be nights where you guys don't talk to each other. Those nights are nights where both of you, realize that whatever you guys were fighting about was stupid so you guys call one another so both you guys can take the blame and apologize to one another. Also a relationship to where you guys are best friends where you guys can play fight with each other and argue without actually getting serious. A relationship where there will never be any awkwardness but only smiles. This is too good to be true as it sounds, but it is a rare love that I'm willing to seek.
Man, I should have never gave that bracelet back. I miss it.
That sounds stupid, but it’s true. I wore it everyday since the day you gave it to me. I don’t even know why I gave it back, but I shouldn’t have. It was kind of like “something to close the deal”-Sex & the City. Like, when people get engaged, they wear their engagement ring, right? We were nowhere near that, LMFAO, but I wore it to remind me of you. Everytime I’d look down at my left wrist, I’d think more about you. Creepy? Well you know me ;] <3
So maybe I did take you for granted. I never knew I’d lose you like I did. We fought a lot, but there was always this voice in the back of my head telling me that everything would be okay..that we’d fix this. Our fights were stupid & you have to admit that too. I know it always began because of me but still..I just don’t see why it’s so hard to forgive someone. Maybe you’ve had a past with another girl that screwed you over, but forget her. I’m not her & you shouldn’t be making me suffer because of something that didn’t involve me. It isn’t my fault. It’s her fault that she was a dumbass to hurt you like that. You let it go & moved on, so why are you always so hesitant? You know I’m nothing like her. I would never ever hurt you like that. I promise. Yet, there’s something/someone telling you I would? Why are you believing them? It’s fine if you don’t wanna give me another chance..but just please stop comparing me to other girls.
DAY 29 - the person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to Dear dad, I wish our relationship was as good as it used to be, but ofcourse things change..especially since I’m growing up. I still tell mom everything though. I wanna be able to tell you everything about how I’m feeling & what’s going on in my life, but I feel like I seriously just can’t. I know our relationship is a lot better than a lot of father/daughter ones, but it isn’t the best. Whenever I bring something up, you just argue. I can never be right, so what’s the point of wasting my breath? You don’t give me a chance to get my point across anyways. Mom always warned me, but I thought that you’d atleast listen to me. Every single time I try, I end up in tears. It just isn’t worth it. I wish you’d let me finish. The only way I can actually ‘vent’ to you is through tumblr ‘cause I know you will never read it. If only you understood..-Love always, Darrian DAY 30 - your reflection in the mirror Dear me, stop being so self conscious.
DAY 26 – Your fears..in great detail Hmm..I have way too many fears. I have a fear of losing the ones I’m really close to. I don’t think I’d be able to live without them, ha. Oh & I’m scared of falling in love and the feeling not being mutual. Most importantly, I’m scared of running out of time. I’m scared that life really is too short & that I’m gonna die without doing things I’ve always planned to do. Oh & I’m scared of mice, rats, and those dirty animals. GAG. DAY 27 – Your favorite place..in great detail Philippinessss. It may be extremely hot there, but I love it. It’s so peaceful and…real. I love seeing my family that I’m not very close to & I like learning about my family history. The water is so great there & idunno..I just love it there. It’s the best escape ever. DAY 28 – Something that you miss..in great detail This boy. He’s a freak, but I
7464.) I really just want to wake up where you are, be next to you, tangled up in you. I want to have stupid inside jokes with you. I want to just sit and listen to music and talk with you. I want to just be with you. That's all I want.
“The reality is that mistakes are inevitable. Fortunately, these same mistakes will provide you with important lessons to help guide you to a brighter future. Accept. Apologize when necessary. Adapt.”—Note to self. (via gabebondoc)
DAY 26 - the last person you made a pinky promise to I make a lot of pinky promises, so I don’t remember who this is to exactly. Dear you, I hope you keep that promise. Also, I hope you know that pinky promises are serious to me. -Darrian DAY 27 - the friendliest person you only knew for one day Well if I knew them for only one day, then how should I remember them? UHMM..dear you, you are really nice. I wish I got to know you better. -Peace out, Darrian :P DAY 28 - someone that changed your mind Dear my friends, thanks for helping me choose right from wrong & helping me with hard decisions. -Love always, Darrian
“i just don’t know why he likes me…I mean he’s way smarter than me and we have like less than nothing in common…and he’s just going to get bored with me, because pretty much all boys do…”—(via gbabysmooth)
30 Day Challenge-DAY 25 [A first..in great detail]
Hmmm..the first time I found out my mom was pregnant with my brother Ethan. It was during the whole divorce process. I knew my mom was already with my stepdad, but they weren’t married at the time. I used to be really crazy psycho child, because I didn’t know what was going on with my parents. I didn’t know why they stayed at different houses. My mom told me it was because my dad hurt his
He’s got a smile that I’d die for. Everyone knows that I’m a prisoner of war for him. Yeaah, sometimes I wish I had a kung fu grip..never let him slip away he’d be my man. Really wish he knew that what I feel is true. He’d be my hero and I would be his darling too. I’m so in love with him. Don’t care who knows that I’m ready to fight, ready to go..just like a GI joe :P
A guy’s point of view: I know way too many really beautiful girls who think they don’t look good… It hurts… because it’s our fault, guys I mean. We make girls feel like they have to be perfect. You know what I mean, flat stomach, big boobs, round booty, long legs, sexy lips, and on top of all that, they have to dress like a whore, and be one as well… nobody can measure up to that… and its not fair… because nobody should have to. Girls prefer being called beautiful instead of hot or sexy. The little imperfections are what make people special. If everyone was
DAY 22 – Something that upsets you..in great detail People. How complicated we make things. Fighting. Being annoyed. Bad personalities. Not getting my way. My personality. Who I’ve become. The fact that I’ve changed. People walking in & out of my life. DAY 23 – Something that makes you feel better..in great detail God. Venting. Crying & letting it out. Listening to music..especially if I can relate. When I turn on the tv and look at the channel guide thing & one of my favorite movies happen to be
To be honest, this summer might be the worst one I've ever had.
The weird thing is that I’ve never wanted summer so bad. I just needed a break from school. Now that summer’s here and almost over, I wish I didn’t waste it on the computer or in bed. I wanna start over.
30 Day Letter Challenge-DAY 22 to DAY 24 'cause I feel like it
DAY 22 - someone you want to give a second chance to Hi, I’d give you a second chance in an instant, but you won’t give me one & last time I checked, everyone deserves a second chance, right? -Love always, Darrian DAY 23 - the last person you kissed Dear you, you know who you are & you know how I feel. I’ve written too many things about you on tumblr, and I need to stop now. -Love always, Darrian DAY 24 - the person that gave you your favourite memory I honestly do not have a favorite memory, but this can be to anyone that’s in my life. I just want to say thanks for not giving up on me & staying with me. Also, thanks for all the fun memories that we’ve shared, and even thanks for the bad ones ‘cause I could learn from those. I hope we’re friends/family forever & have many more memorable times[: -Love always, Darrian
DAY 16 – Your first kiss..in great detail It was in December..the day before winter break officially started. I went to school that day and then home. Unexpectedly, I was asked to go over a friend’s house so I eventually did. I wasn’t the only one there. I think I was with like three boys & one was my boyfriend at the time. We just chilled at our friend’s house and watched a movie. Obviously, we had to go home cause my cousins from Virginia were coming over. He didn’t have a ride home, so my sister picked us up. That’s when he met her! But while we were